In Belong Magazine’s inaugural issue, Alissa Circle asks, “What is blogging anyways? Does anyone really even know what it is anymore?” I’ve been asking this question for the last year or so, along with the more confounding (to me) question, “Is anyone who doesn’t have something to sell blogging these days?
My first iteration of this blog, housed on Blogger, took off in 2009, shortly after moving to another state, having left everything I knew from the previous ten years. Finding myself in an insular town, the blogging community was my social outlet, and many of the “online friends” I made through it are true, “IRL” friends to this day.
After moving to yet another state – our current home – and working outside the house again, my need for blogging as a social outlet wasn’t the same, and it fell lower on my priority list.
When I finally had gotten into the groove of my new life and was able to make space for blogging once again, the blogosphere had changed. Radically. Bloggers were now influencers. Engagement, if it happened at all, took place on Facebook. If you wanted to partner with a brand for a giveaway, you had to have so many followers on Pinterest and Instagram. I was confused by the dramatic shift that I didn’t realize bloggers had been building up to during my hiatus, and I became overwhelmed by the idea of what I thought blogging was supposed to be instead of staying true to my own purpose. Even sadder, most of my original blogging community had stopped writing.
In 2013, I began to find my purpose and voice again, as well as an expanded blogging community, gearing up to become the mommy blogger I had always secretly hoped to be, as I eagerly awaited the arrival of my firstborn. Then, as suddenly as I had found my voice, it disappeared on me, following a profound loss. It’s been an uphill battle ever since. Yet, for some reason, I can’t quit the idea of blogging.
Five years later, I still struggle with the overwhelming promise of a blank screen, BUT…
… it’s not because I can’t find my voice (some might argue that my voice is stronger than it’s ever been). It’s because I’ve been getting in my own way, taking this return to blogging way too seriously. And so, I’m going to LET IT GO and just write. What does that mean? It means I have no idea where this blog is going, assuming it goes anywhere. Is it a book blog? A mom blog? A “lifestyle” blog (whatever that is)? Am I going to delete all my previous posts and start anew? Insert myself into a new blogging community? Or just write into the void? I. HAVE. NO. IDEA. And now I’m okay with that.
So if you’re along for this ride, I can’t tell you what it’s going to look like because I honestly don’t know. But I’m finally looking forward to the journey.